Graham, I still don't understand why you had to leave us. You always seemed so happy. I wish I could've helped you with whatever it was that made you feel so low. Every day when I wake up, the realisation that you're not coming back hits me. It's the most horrible feeling. But sometimes, there are moments when I forget you're not coming back and I think I see you in the street, and times when I amexpecting you to burst through the door any minute, as if it's all been a bad dream. It's not the same without "the man of the house". You kept Mum and I going with your noise, your mess, and your general carry on. I can only hope that you are watching over us now, still looking after us. The only thing that keeps me going is that I'm the only 1 here for Mum now and the hope that 1 day soon we will all be together again-the 3 of us, like it should be. I always thought my job as your big sister was to look after you. I wish I could've done better, and I hope that wherever you are now, someone is taking good care of you. I miss you more with every day that passes, and I would give anything to have you back. Love Always, Allison xxxx